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January 2012

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Us Girls.

I’ve been thinking about the future. What’ll take place? Will I graduate in 4 years? Will I go to grad school? Will I ever get married? When will that be? And please Lord, have my niece be the only baby I’m near for like the next 10 years.

Maybe this applies to guys too, but I only known this girl point of view.

It’s likes our whole lives everything is based on emotions. We want to be happy, we want to be content, we want to feel loved, we want to be desirable,….we want all these thing centered around how we feel. 

But the weird thing is when it comes to our future (or at least MY future), I am basing everything off of concrete facts. I want to know FOR SURE I will be successful (in whatever way that will be). I want to know FOR SURE I am going to have the most beautiful, well planned wedding to the my dearest man I love. I want to know FOR SURE my major will be worth something. I want to know FOR SURE that everything in life will go up from here. 

Why is this? Because we’re scared?

Yes, in fact, I am terrified in the most excited way possible.

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“I don’t regret leaving the past where it belongs.” —
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History

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I have a lot of ambitions that I am chasing after. I want to experience life, try new things, instill passion in others, find passions within myself, but,

most of all, I just want to change the way people look at one another. 

Why? Well let me explain. Above is a picture of me at my kindergarten graduation with some of the most pivotal people in my life. The woman is my grandma. She probably looks like/ dresses like yours, right? This woman was a consistent character in my story when I was younger. She was the grandma that was there for all the big events, she was the grandma that was there for the small milestones, and she was the grandma that was there in the moments between. Long story short, she decided to trade in her life for a new one with all new people and all new reasons for living. The man next to her is my dear Papa. He was everything. After a many years, my grandma decided to walk away. He was the man who experienced incredible heartache. Heartache and loneliness that I could never bear. Lastly, the man next to me is my Uncle Danny (or as I call him, my Uncle D). He was my best friend. He had a tough life. Always getting by and always fighting addiction.

You may look at this picture and judge. You may look at this story and judge. But these people and the trials they have worked through and the mistakes they may have made has forever impacted my life.

How? 

They gave me a new perspective on life. They showed me to never judge someone by how they look or even what they are going through. They exemplified to me how everyone needs love, someone to believe in them, and everyone needs God. Because this is a great, big, complex world and without truth and His deliverance we are nothing, but lost. 

I know these people were placed into my story so I can take this knowledge and spread it as far as I can. Because if I just sit and stay here with the beautiful realization that everyone deserves a chance to teach you  something then there are so many lessons that you will fail to learn. You can’t learn everything from the man behind the pulpit or the woman at the end of the pew. You must get out there. You must give everyone a chance (even those who seem rough around the edges). God didn’t say “stay”, He said “GO”.

Jan 18, 2012
“Ethnography, or the study ofothe r cultures, makes the “strange” seem familiar and
the familiar seem “strange”.”
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Jan 17, 2012
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Thankfulness.

I am thankful.  

I am thankful for the One who gives me a choice, but still loves me when I choose the wrong way. I am thankful for the One and the mysterious, powerful ways He is continuously working. I am thankful that even when I feel that He is not near, He indeed is right there and loving me more than ever. 

I am thankful for the boy who gives me new perspective and hope. I am thankful for this boy who has taught me to forgive and forget, love unconditionally, and never drift away from the great plans that are in store for me. I am thankful for this boy who loves me and treats me the way I should be treated. I am thankful for this boy who I can laugh with and beat him in video games. I am thankful for this boy who believes in me more than I feel anyone does. 

I am thankful for new friends and the new experiences they offer. I am thankful for my loving 2nd mom and the ways she continuously makes me laugh. I am thankful for her guidance and dependability. I am thankful for her tolerance of my jokes and I am thankful for her welcoming heart. I am thankful for the artsy, coffee addict friend I made from the start. I am thankful for our similarities. I am thankful for her “old soul” - strong, gracious, and generous. I am thankful for my friend from sports authority. I am thankful to have proof that truly anyone can be friends because I am quite the opposite of her. I am thankful for our differences. I am thankful for her willingness to step up. I am thankful for her wisdom. I am thankful for my friend who has a last name that I never dare to try to pronounce. I am thankful for her spark, passion, and drive. I am thankful for her ability to give hope. I am thankful for the laughter we share. I am thankful for my friend who is the spitting image of snow white. I am thankful for princess like qualities- poise, a tender heart, and warm spirit. I am thankful for her honesty and her humor. 

I am thankful for the old friends I still hold onto dearly. I am thankful for their acceptance of my mistakes. I am thankful for their desire to know me still. I am more thankful for them then I let them see or know.

I am thankful for the ones who came and went. I am thankful for the time I had with them. I am thankful for the good times because those will be forever engraved in my heart along with the memories of all they did for me. I am thankful for the bad times because if they never took place I would not be who I am today. I am thankful for learning when enough is enough. I am thankful for listening to what my heart had to say rather than the voice beside me.

I am thankful for my family. I am thankful beyond measure for this. I am thankful for new life and the memory of those who have passed on. I am thankful that I still feel those who passed’s presence. I am thankful for their growing support.

I am thankful. 

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